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• working title
• quotes
• work-in-progress note
• byline
• collaborators and credits
• copyright
• quick start guide
  • who is this document for?
• funding
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• closely related external resources
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• full table of contents
• preliminary and introductory things
  • document-level meta-warning
  • epistemic status disclaimer
  • risks; maximally cautious warnings/directives (first-pass, without explanation)
  • but what actually makes it risky?; how do risks obtain, when they do?
  • an exoteric doctrine v0.2
  • an esoteric doctrine ("going full buddhist?" / "is this full buddhist?" / "is this even buddhist?" / "never go full buddhist"*)
  • introduction; getting over the hump; text interpretation
  • preconceiving, direct reifying [draft]
• opinionated, telic, soteriological things
  • goal (draft)
  • end state (draft!)
  • no fixed conceptualized goal or end state part one ("goodness")
  • no fixed conceptualized goal or end state part two ("better")
  • meditation is concrete problem solving
  • wellbeing and sacrifice
  • ok-ness and cosmology
  • seamless hyphenation [draft]
  • other practices (draft)
• practice preliminaries
  • timeline, mindset, trajectory, harm
    • raw hours
    • better to finish, and smoothly
    • a failure mode
    • meditation is not strength-training
    • entrenchment and active occlusion (layering); shoulds; pitfalls of inferred "mental actions"
    • extreme skill and extreme standards
    • physical sequelae
    • the end of your world (after adyashanti, maybe?)
    • drama
    • error propagation, wayfinding, grace of what minds are
    • on good and bad [draft]
    • conclusion
• practice
  • nuts and bolts considerations
    • preliminaries and vacations; conceptualization as such
    • transitioning from other practices (re "sharp cutovers")
    • environment [and subtlety; (more) risks and rabbit holes]
    • movement
    • posture (section needs editing)
    • breath
    • states (draft)
    • "headyness"/"heady-ness"/"headiness"
    • "subtle energy" and "energy work" and mental models
    • brief draft comment on first-pass, seemingly separate magisteria
    • body, self-trust, sensory processing, meaning
    • but is it meditation? (a dialogue between J and Mark)
    • practice in daily life or no?
    • what about concrete/proximal problems?
    • how much and how often
    • what to do when
  • top-level practices/categories
    • meta practice [solo and otherwise]
      • meta protocol
        • collaborator formulations
          • collaborator formulation 1 (mh)
      • meta meta protocol
    • solo practice ("main protocol")
      • preliminary/auxiliary practices
      • main practice(s)
        • introduction
        • practices
          • p0
          • p1
          • p2
          • p3
          • p4
          • p5
          • p6
          • p7
          • p8
          • p9
          • p10
          • p11
          • p12
          • p13
          • p14
          • p15
          • p16
          • p17
          • p18
          • p19
          • p20
          • p21
          • p22
          • p23 (stub)
          • p24 (experimental)
          • p25
          • p26
          • p27 (stub)
          • p28 (scratch notes)
          • p29 (stub/​scratch)
          • p30 (stub)
          • p31 (draft)
          • p32
          • p33 (scratch)
          • p34 (scratch dictated)
          • p35 (scratch)
          • p36 (scratch)
          • p37 (scratch dictated)
          • p38 (scratch dictated)
          • p39
        • theory
          • incomplete, alternative renderings
    • creativity(/unsticking) protocol [solo and otherwise]
      • what to do when nothing's happening/working
      • creativity(/unsticking) protocol
    • interpersonal practice
      • formulation 1 (including Many Protocol)
      • formulation 2
      • formulation 3
      • formulation 4
      • formulation 5
      • formulation 6
      • emotions(tm) and feelings(tm) in interpersonal processing vs meditation (alpha draft)
      • social honor(?) versus eternal soul theory of mind/identity (stub)
      • on friendship and (found) family (stub)
      • fight-fights (draft)
      • scratch notes
• lists and more
  • nonmonotonicity
  • definitions
  • undefined and explications
  • bodymindenvironment
  • can’t-look-yet ("avoidance")
  • systematicity, ontologies, phenomenological and otherwise
  • exhaustivity and bottlenecks
  • ordering matters / order matters
  • (mental) action and the attentional manifold
  • the use of the will
  • a note on force (plus a brief mention of "redo-to-undo")
  • a brief note on effort
  • more on "undo"
  • meditating by coincidence
  • failure and other seemingly permanent and bad things
  • how bad does it have to get?
  • regarding "better not to start; if you start better to finish" (draft)
  • extremity replay and creativity: panic, trauma, sexual arousal
  • x-desires, fulfillment, transformation, discussion
  • how to know what you want or what your goals are (barely edited transcript excerpt):
  • taking refuge (can reshape the local environment and world; global wayfinding through late-stage); art, creativity as whole, part, or beginning of that
  • on falling asleep and utilizing sleep
  • complex breathing-related puzzles
  • working with hypoarousal and (and somewhat separately but relatedly) medical fear and uncertainty (draft):
  • note on letting go
  • a gentle onramp
  • good(ness) bad(ness)
  • some "big" useful concepts
  • poem of self/other confusion and interdependence
  • is good, is bad (q)
  • states
  • invitation of acceptance
  • nutrition
  • theory-driven (/ theory-harmonizing-equilibriating) intuitive/​interoceptive nutrition and eating
  • typology of pain and suffering in terms of when to try meditation (experimental)
  • historical and contemporary difficulties and uncertainties of life [experimental section]
  • superstitious meditation, muscle tension, and will
  • a brief and incomplete theory of muscle tension risk in meditation
  • neutral postures, somatization, desomatization, muscle tension, etc.
  • CO2 tolerance
  • electrolytes
  • metabolic traps with respect to meditation
  • balancing solve and dissolve
  • sleep and distraction
  • clarification on muscle contraction and stretching versus chronic muscle tension
  • positive dwelling in inability
  • when things get worse again--burn-off, integration, suppression, unsuppression
  • integration, settling, unsettling, resettling, locality, globality, unity (draft)
  • last gasps
  • worse for no reason, more X in general, and wisdom
  • involuntary movement, semi-involuntary movement, kriyas
  • kundalini
  • can't talk
  • when/​if things are bad / (not your) fault / determinism
  • being (not) ok tangles
  • being (forcibly) ok tangles (h)
  • brief note on space and sensations
  • raw/​bare sensations contra "always on" (possibly misleading early draft)
  • brief, loosely related notes on unknotting, untwisting, untangling
  • attention is not fundamental
  • "inner space" and physical/social grace
  • dark phenomenology and presence/absence conceptions
  • seeming "boundary" phenomenology
  • when bad is good
  • bad chaos, dissolution, distintegration
  • upstream causes of ordering errors
  • prenatal experiences, the fetal position, and other 'be moved bottlenecks'
  • daily limits
  • advanced postures and pitfalls
  • picking up where you left off
  • menstrual cycle
  • blood pressure, etc:
  • equanimity, no such thing and lock-and-key stuff
  • autonomic vulnerability, autonomic nudity, autonomic alignment (rough draft)
  • pushing away, holding at bay, preconceiving, direct-reifying
  • brief thoughts on substances like psychedelics
  • getting triggered, usefulness and risks
  • some narrowly conceived phenomenological investigations that may or may not be useful
  • inappropriate reification (stub)
  • a dialogue between N and Mark, on reasoning and pre-reasoning
  • bridge building and dialogue
    • bridge building
      • making connections between my stuff and lineage traditions, in three parts (draft!)
        • part 1: "same playing field"
        • part 2: continuity between "mundane" and "supramundane"; breadth-first vs depth-first
        • part 3: implicit and explicit global wayfinding (or having the best shot of generating everything you need)
      • making (sometimes straw) distinctions between my stuff and other stuff
        • many enlightenments? (a nonrigorous position) (old post)
        • no one gets pixel-perfect possibilities
        • renunciation quibbles and other things (draft; needs an even first editing pass)
        • polemics
    • open informal response on social media to someone in a contemporary practice scene
  • a note on "making progress," "regression," and redo-to-undo
  • on suffering
  • inner peace placeholder
  • love placeholder
  • wellbeing placeholder
  • autonomic harmony placeholder
  • ball of string analogy and more on posture and feedback loops (draft)
  • far reaches of meditation (no particular order [yet])
    • on groundlessness, a brief note
    • dreamlikeness
    • stub158da1a2b [intentional]
    • naturalization
    • cautions in favor of mere immediacy as sufficiency for any global grounding
    • impersonalization and environmentalization
    • rebalancing/​balancing effortlessness and doing
    • vague sketch of progression, with respect to emptiness and groundlessness
    • touchstones sort of leaving out or only weakly interacting with "wisdom" and morality ("at least one sense in which")
    • tweets / shitposts
    • temp catch-all
    • vulnerability (physical and otherwise, cf. suffering) [stub]
    • that won't work
    • crappy timeline guidelines
    • endlessness vs impermanence (scratch/​stub)
    • holy/​(sacred?) mystery (scratch/​stub)
    • void (nothingness, cessation(s), nibbana, nirvana [stub/​scratch]
    • evil (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • eternity, suffering, death
    • emptiness (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • nonduality (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • impermanence (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • subjectivity, self, I-ness, ego, identity, awareness, doer, watcher and all that (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • suffering (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • making sense (far reaches) [stub/​scratch]
    • self-love [stub/​scratch]
  • on meaning, goodness, badness, aboutness, intentionality, secondary properties
  • a dialogue on wayfinding, homunculi, parts, goodness, agency, harmony, interdependence
  • a brief dialogue on locality and concreteness
  • clockworks metaphor (tweezers, scale, emptiness, locality)
  • sex, gender, etc. stuff
    • working with sex and gender (plus "tantra")
  • stuff stuff
    • don't be here now (to start)
    • normalcy, crackpotty-ness, wisdom, craziness, competency [stub/draft]
    • "false ends" (messy first draft)
    • surface areas and the radically personal (draft)
  • subtle interaction
    • "psychic" and "supernatural" stuff; what/how/how-not [draft]
    • self and other; good and bad [draft]
    • prenatal experiences and subtle interaction
    • direct and indirect people and group stuff
    • on vibe(s) and vibing, briefly
    • distinctions
    • on parts, demons, egregores
    • axes of individuation with relation to value judgments (transcript)
    • spiritwork manifesto thing (snapshot)
  • character, personality, ego, virtue. sovereignty. outside view. cultural, familial good/​bad reversals (draft)
  • civilizational stuff
    • buddhas, anti-buddhas, civilization, and the importance of method [draft]
    • sketching alternatives to straw realism (international and group relations) [draft!][2500 words]
    • karma, losslessness, developmental stage models, violence, world; including Ken Wilber and Robert Kegan (draft; 6000 words)
  • mark's approximate practice timeline summary highlights
  • farther to fall and sometimes just plain wrong
  • arational coherence [draft]
  • miscellaneous pith notes
• neuroscience speculative snapshots
  • neuroscience and meditation, odds and ends [2022-02-09]
  • more neuroscience odds and ends 2022-02-10
  • neuroscience, meditation, rationality, folk psychology, and sensorimotor processing
    • crowley, chads, rationality, and the unification of will
    • enlightenment, sensorimotor processing, love
  • brief discussion on generalization
• teaching and learning and creating and relating (meditation and anything)
  • teaching
    • guided on-ramp for main practice p2 [draft]
    • pith instructions (experimental)
    • more compressed pith instructions
    • yet another pith instruction formulation (experimental)
    • "advanced" (or whatever) pith instructions (work in progress)
    • a bare-bones, bottom-up, noting-esque practice (without labeling)
    • manipulation-themed pith instructions
  • embodied learning
    • technical debt, meditation, and minds
    • a speculative comment on language learning
    • technical debt and inverse operations
    • merely just having the experience itself, and, technical debt is good, actually
    • the scale analogy [draft]
    • karma, samskaras, technical debt dialogue with PK
  • epistemics
    • meditation indirectly discloses domain knowledge
    • human epistemic dynamics and phenomena
    • epistemic-aesthetic rigor [stub]
    • calling word salad phenomenon
    • brief notes and qualifiers
    • path-dependent mediate conclusions and provisionalities
    • the aboutness experience directly itself (note---this is very general and could also go in 'lists and more' proper)
  • relating
    • in-relationship foreclosing legacy of past interaction [stub]
  • creating
    • randomness/arbitrariness, unpunished, as necessary data [not yet written]
  • lineage and pedagogy
    • lineages and transformative works
    • on thinking and rigor and pedagogy in meditation instruction
• bibliography (incomplete)
• appendix 1: preliminary/auxiliary practices (names only)
• appendix 2: preliminary/auxiliary practices (full)
• appendix 3: main practice p1 appendix (usa english; "en-us")
• appendix 4: worst case culture/​community stuff
• appendix 5: subtle interaction
• appendix 6: death LARPs
• appendix 7: jhana and yoga nidra for long covid (and other things) (draft, experimental)
• appendix 8: acute and chronic ill-health LARPs
• appendix 9: gricean and yin-yang analysis
• appendix 10: communicating feelings (spicy) (draft)
• appendix 11: language and the "causal body" (scratch; draft)
• appendix 12: language and perspective taking (scratch; draft)
• appendix 13: narrative writing bibliography (messy)
• appendix 14: resolved (usually) temporary notes