p30: (stub)

Non-mindfully explore suffering itself.

Or, Non-mindfully explore suffering/bummer[1] and pleasure/fuck-yeahhhhh/fuck-yessssss themselves.

Non-mindfully here means to do so on net without reifying or strengthening a “witness” or a separation between experience and experiencer.

(---when safe, when not just an exercise in “self-torturing”! That is sometimes, in some parts of the "space," may have to de-layer for thousands of hours before this is constructive! Probably a little helpful immediately in lots of places but not comprehensively helpful immediately. All other meditation-y things and main practices and personal self-management and self-care and self-distracting strategies are always ok!!!!!!)

• Experiencing suffering is a deep and highly effective “strategy” for the organism and can gradually be replaced with dominatingly/strictly superior/ more effective strategies that don’t involve suffering. That is, as the bodymind finds/realizes locally safe ways to not suffer, or ways to be that are truly better than suffering, then suffering is released as a strategy.
  • some suffering can be “deeper” than personhood/selfing