love placeholder:
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scratch notes:
love was sort of an unchosen and alien process rewriting each us at an oblique angle to our other plans and goals. very strange! harmonization is ongoing! [image of misaligned grids]
Mark L 30 days ago one can be mistaken about its presence or absence, and it's not a monolith, it fluctuates and is influenced by experiences with the person and in the world
Mark L 30 days ago continually pursued and renewed and all that, but there's a deep driver, deep pair-bonding-ness, something that comes with it, as far as has been my (limited) experience (with love not with relationships in general)
Mark L 30 days ago if not soul lit on fire, then maybe "deep bond," "home-ness."
Mark L 30 days ago at least one restless thing comes to rest
"the" answer to otherwise zero-sum
perfect dynamic balance between vulnerability + resilience = humility + strength = learning and growing without dissolution or disregulation = love, somehow
"There’s something here that seems stable, settled, certain, able to metabolize anything without being disrupted or stained or corrupted. Incorruptible. Pure. Yet, it is sensitive, responsive, creative, awake, sentient, sapient; not stagnant, not ossified, it learns, it grows, it spontaneously and proactively seeks and acts."
reference: https://meditationstuff.wordpress.com/2020/02/24/enlightenment-sensorimotor-processing-love/ [last accessed: 2022-03-27]
something "completionary," both in terms of intimate relating and community belonging or friendship and family cf. "deep ongoing rewriting of seeming and being and goals if previously absent" -- and yet can be missing or lost and can also be pathological versions cf. codepedency and loss of future opportunity. and yet. might be more a cultural or community problem. evil = absence of love? cf. good, bad, evil
cf. adversarial, game theoretic, warrior dimensions