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p3:

For which it’s good to do so and you can do do, will that you become aware of willing, acting/doing, expecting, seeming, appearing, convincing and denying that is or will be currently good to become aware of. And, simultaneously, for which it’s good to do so and you can do so, will that you do not become aware of willing, expecting, seeming, and appearing that is or will be currently bad to become aware of.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~~] willing W that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [proposition] P then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that willing W during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~provisionally~] expecting that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [proposition] P then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that expecting during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~indirectly~] seeming that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [proposition] P then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that seeming during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~directly~] appearing(/looking) (?/it is apparent, ?/apparently) that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [proposition] P then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that appearing during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~directly and immediately~] acting/doing[do/act/cause/maintain/enable/incept/start/prevent/block/stop/end/have part in/querying/asking/wondering/imagining/storytelling/narrating/what-if-ing/solving/solutioning/questioning/partcipating/pushing/pulling/attending/image/envision/visualize/interrupt/preempt/interleave/substitute/switch/meaning-make/meaning-dissolve...] that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [] X then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that doing/happening/something during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~~] denying that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [proposition] P then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that denying during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
If you become aware of (presently and directly) [experiencing] [in such or such and thus manner[/sense/ways in which there is (~for yourself~)]] [~~] convincing that or (something) like or (something) in the neighborhood of [proposition] P then, if you can and it’s good to do so, will that you have the absence of willing to change that convincing during this particular interval of awareness but possibly willing to change it imminently or during other intervals.
(This list is a work in progress:)
seeming (that [proposition] P)
expecting (that [proposition] P)
willing (that [proposition] P)
appearing (that [proposition] P)
explicating/articulating/enwordening/verbalizing (of [proposition] P)
clarifying/separating/deconfusing (of [proposition] P)
assessing/judging/evaluating (whether X is good or bad...)
awareness of knowledge of inability
awareness of knowledge of ignorance (of not knowing [something])
awareness of knowledge of insufficiency or inadequacy
?awareness of knowledge of impossibility
awareness of knowledge of possiblity/necessity/contingency/duty/obligation/responsibility...
being (identity) [I/me/self/]person/group/mixture] X [cf. Who (all) am I/is this being?]
being (nature; causal/historical/telic nature) [] X [cf. What am I being?]
being history
being current state
being current dynamics
being causal laws
being telos
doing/acting/behaving/[/thinking]causing/enabling/maintaining/starting/stopping/ending/preventing/blocking [] X
assessing/judging/evaluating X to be Y; assessing/judging/evaluating (whether X is good or bad...)
immersive childhood or any past feel
awareness of knowledge of lack of safety for being aware of the knowledge of a particular thing (cf bad to know)
awareness of knowledge of part-of-whole-ness
certainty
knowledge of certain inevitable success [with respect to X]
knowledge of certain unimpeachable (veridical) goodness [of X]
knowledge of (disendorsed) not knowing (something)
knowledge of (mediately endorsed) not knowing (something)
knowledge of temporarily not knowing something previously known
knowledge of provisionally disendorsed, felt certain knowledge of reality or how things work [regarding some experience or something in particular]
[knowledge of believed irrational seeming safety]
knowledge of need for safety
knowledge of need for certainty
awareness of past, immersive world-feel
knowledge of seeming unsafety
expectation that something will make sense in some particular way
expectation that something will be explainable in some particular way
expectation that something will work out or succeed in some particular way
knowledge of having (had?) no idea what’s/was going on; knowing of having been confused in a particular (past or present/ongoing) situation or context
knowing now knowing from the past
abeyance
causing/maintaining endorsed abeyance
urge/impulse/overcoming... to...
desiring
underlying motivation...
ground... basis...
knowing (that [proposition] P)
understanding (that [proposition] P)
believing
convincing (that [proposition] P)
denying (that [proposition] P)
doubting (that [proposition] P)
considering (that [proposition] P)
representing (that [proposition] P)
?asserting (that [proposition] P)
wanting/desiring/hoping/longing/needing/requiring/wishing/craving/thirsting/?grasping (that [proposition] P)
planning (that [proposition] P)
demanding/extorting/??foreclosing/insisting (that [proposition] P)
excusing (like making excuses, rationalizing, self-justifying) (that [proposition] P)
remembering
blaming
owing
reifying
enforcing/forcing; active holding, keeping, blocking, propping things up
avoiding
asserting
rehearsing
exclaiming
planning, intending, anticipating...
sensing that
perceiving
thinking
urging
listening to yourself from there or in such and thus a manner/sense/way, maybe or not give up knowing or understanding temporarily for here, and maybe or not allow yourself to be moved like so
[reverie, trance, dream, reminiscence, immersion, flashback, not-now-ness, not-right-now-ness, non-present-moment-ness]
blocking, overriding
knowledge of where a particular representation lives in relation to all other representations
knowledge of where something in particular lives in the mind and/or experience
knowledge of other human minds
knowledge of other human bodies
knowledge of the relationship between other human minds and other human bodies
knowledge of where the future lives
knowledge of spatial location
knowledge of spatial location in relation to oneself
knowledge of what things are "inside/internal" (if anything)
knowledge of what things are "outside/external" (if anything)
awareness of something "inside/internal"
awareness of something "outside/external"
knowledge of "insideness/internalness" (if any)
knowledge of "outsideness/externalness" (if any)
awareness of "insideness/internalness" (if any)
awareness of "outsideness/externalness" (if any)
knowledge of borders or boundaries or lack thereof
awareness of borders or boundaries or lack thereof
knowledge of distance between you and something else or lack thereof
awareness of distance between you and something else or lack thereof
knowledge of counterfactuality (other ways something could be, all else [being] equal/the same)
knowledge of optionality
knowledge of could-be-otherwise-ness (cf counterfactuality, contingency, dimensions of variation)
knowledge of could-have-been-otherwise-ness (cf counterfactuality, contingency, dimensions of variation)
knowledge of (seeming-)couldn’t-be-other-wise-ness
knowledge of where sense(meaning)-making lives; knowledge of coherent meaning; knowledge of noncommital, neither endorsed-nor-disendorsed discoherence
awareness of particular sense(meaning) or representational content as such
awareness of coherent meaning
awareness of noncommital, neither endorsed-nor-disendorsed discoherence (discoherent "meaning")
knowledge of haste/rushing/bypass/corner-cutting/force/forcing/smashing/crushing/hammering/impatience
awareness of force/forcing/haste
knowledge of seeming unsolvabliity
knowledge of care
knowledge of immaturity
awareness of immature representational content
knowledge of responsibility
knowledge of "thinking" [about X] [taking place]
awareness of "thinking" [about X] [taking place]
knowledge of "model building" [about X for (the purpose/intent of) Y] [taking place]
awareness of "model building" [about X for (the purpose/intent of) Y] [taking place]
awareness of "the sensations of thinking"
knowledge of attending
awareness of "attending"
awareness of "the sensations of attending"
knowledge/awareness/experience of belief/believing/"belief"/"believing"/etc.... [sic]
knowledge of sensations of believing
awareness of sensations of believing
knowledge of sensations of expecting
awareness of sensations of expecting
knowledge of imagining
awareness of imagining
knowledge of sensations of imagining
awareness of sensations of imagining
knowledge/awareness of "towards"
knowledge/awareness of "away"
knowledge/awareness of "forwards"
knowledge/awareness of "backwards"
knowledge/awareness of "good"
knowledge/awareness of "bad"
knowledge/awareness of "updating"
knowledge/awareness of disbelief
knowledge/awareness of pain/suffering
knowledge/awareness of goodness of X
knowledge/awareness of intolerability
knowledge/awareness urgency/haste/rushing/hurry
knowledge/awareness of "X feels so good"
awareness of the current felt goodness of something endorsed (or not) as being bad
knowledge/awareness of "road to nowhere-ness"
[knowledge/awareness of "energy drain"/"motivation drain-out"/"strength drain-out"]
knowledge/awareness of "counterintuitiveness to ‘go there’/‘do that’"
knowledge/awareness of "extreme badness"
knowledge/awareness of "critical badness"
knowledge/awareness of "too good-ness"
knowledge/awareness of seeming "[I have] no ability/know-how/models/knowledge of how to handle that and [I] never will
knowledge/awareness of possibility/potentiality
knowledge of coalescing/gathering
knowledge of dispersing/spreading
knowledge/awareness of credulity/credulousness
knowledge/awareness of seeming local fallibility
knowledge/awareness of immersive childhood feel/immersive prenatal feel/immersive otherworldly feel/ another time feel/foreign iintention/alien intention
knowledge/awareness of observer plus dynamics as such
knowledge/awareness of sensory memory
knowledge of counterintuitiveness
knowledge/awareness of "dark"/nonsalient sensations
knowledge/awareness of seeming "nothing" that is actually the presence of "dark"/"black"/nonsalient sensations
awareness of subtle/quiet/low-intensity/low-magnitude/barely-there sensations
knowledge of awareness of the currently felt goodness of something
knowledge/awareness of "nowhere to go nonexistence dysregulation Intolerability uhandleability
knowledge of not having any idea what’s going on knowledge of having no idea whats going on
knowledge/awareness of "actually think going to die or go insane or etc if look"
knowledge/awareness of "no choice but to just look"
knowledge/awareness of [(countering) good thing X] even if [(corresponding) bad thing Y]
knowledge/awareness of [(countering) good thing X] even though [(corresponding) bad thing Y]
knowledge/awareness of [(countering) good thing X] even while [(corresponding) bad thing Y]
knowledge/awareness of X would be bad if true/false even for a second/instant
knowledge/awareness of don’t know [if X is existing/obtaining/actual/nonactual/true/false/good/bad] for sure/in certainty
knowledge/awareness of acceptance [of current belief or actuality [that] X [is/isn’t/might/may be existing/obtaining/true/false/unknown/unknowable/good/bad]] (or ok to look)
even if don’t know [how (to do/get/have/be/achieve/solve/start/stop/fix/do/undo (X)] now, might know in future
knowledge/awareness of "no big deal"/"that’s not a big deal"/"that’s not important"/"that doesn’t mean anything"/"that’s meaningless"/push-away/minimization
knowledge/awareness of "feels like dying/dissolution/loss-of-will/loss-of-self/soul-damage/soul-corruption/insanity"
knowledge/awareness of "[effortless] [almost-already-there] stability in/as all of that"
knowledge/awareness of seeming "it-was-over-before-it-even-began-and/but-I-just-didn’t-even-know-it-yet-until-just-right-now" trauma
knowledge/awareness of immersive dream
knowledge/awareness of immersive "delusion"
knowledge/awareness of seeming "it’s not working"
knowledge/awareness of "oh, that is the thing"
knowledge/awareness of optionality
knowledge/awareness of lack of optionality, choicelessness
knowledge/awareness of "something I could do right now or not"
knowledge/awareness of "local choices I could choose amongst/from among"
knowledge/awareness of "something that doesn’t have to be taken at face value"
knowledge/awareness of a "seeming self-made assertion that can be provisionalized"
knowledge of misattribution; awareness of that which has been misattributed
knowledge/awareness of "what needs to be real or not-real in order to meditate"
knowledge/awareness of "don’t want that" [but you actually might]
knowledge/awareness of "that would have been so good or that at least would have (temporarily) felt so good, had it happened [given that/time/place/age/degree-of-experience-and-knowledge]
knowledge/awareness of (seeming/chosen) "[that’s] not for me"/"not going to have that, choose that, go after that; will give away, relinquish, refuse, dismiss that"
knowledge/awareness of too good/bad to be true/false/real/existing/obtaining/factual/counterfactual/present/absent
knowledge/awareness of how I would have solved X in a vacuum, with no cultural input
knowledge/awareness of an inability to think, plan, or do anything as such
knowledge/awareness of continuous [(subtle)] prevention
knowledge/awareness of "didn’t think I had to look at this"; "didn’t think I had time to look at this"
knowledge/awareness of "if I take the time to look at that then something bad will happen"
knowledge/awareness of reliance on sensations representing not-here-and-now-ness
knowledge/awareness of turning towards inside instead of outside for stabilization
knowledge/awareness of inclination towards indirect/mediated/symbolic control
knowledge/awareness of "had I only known X"
knowledge/awareness/experience of "is-ness"
[knowledge/awareness/experience of thinking, believing, etc.]
knowledge/awareness/experience of "mode of being as such"
knowledge/awareness/experience of being "mode of being as such" [sic]
knowledge/awareness of inner conflict
knowledge/awareness of "not me"
awareness of gappiness/gappyness/distraction/experiential-temporal-discontinuity/jump/jog/gap/discontinuity/reconfiguration/distraction/diversion/displacement [might feel good or bad and could be either good or bad]
awareness of doubling
knowledge/awareness of a lack/deficit/sparsity of understanding
knowledge/awareness of an absence of understanding
knowledge/awareness of confusion
awareness of "getting"/"getting mind to do X" [cf forcing]
knowledge of seeming occluded resolve
knowledge of insecurity
knowledge of "temptation", insecurity, credulity/credulousness
knowledge/awareness of "moral reality"; causal/moral/reality
knowledge/awareness of desire or intention to make [X] actual
knowledge/awareness of juxtaposition
knowledge/awareness of [directly] "having no idea how to do that/X"
knowledge/awareness of "don’t know how to do that/X"
awareness of [a] "bounded nothing/absence pocket/bubble"
awareness of "that which would consume all [resources] [because of intrinsic interestingness/pleasure/goodness; would want to do it all the time to exclusion of []]
awareness of "that which would consume all [resources] [because of impossible/infinite ‘problematicness’]
awareness of [a] "knowing/[being able to ]tell[ing] thread/bridge"
knowledge/awareness darkness vs true absence; true absence vs darkness
knowledge/awareness gap discontinuity, blue, partial blink out, partial absence, jog
knowledge of unfixability; knowledge of unsolvability
knowledge/awareness of "as real as it gets" [with respect to X]
knowledge/awareness of "serious as a heart attack" [with respect to X]
knowledge/awareness of revision
knowledge/awareness of error correction
knowledge/awareness of counterfactuality
knowledge/awareness of permanence
[knowledge/awareness of "It’s just what happened"]
knowledge/awareness of "unrecoverabiity/"unrecoverable; can’t recover from that"
knowledge/awareness of "not in a million/billion years"/never
knowledge/awareness of "right in reality"
knowledge/awareness of "weaves reality together"
knowledge/awareness of "how the world/everything/reality works"
knowledge/awareness of "how the world/everything/reality must work"
knowledge/awareness of "it would be critical bad if X"
knowledge/awareness of "new or renewed optionality [to stop/start X]"
knowledge/awareness of "bypass" or "pre-bypass"/"should just be able to[ X[, full stop]]"
knowledge/awareness of ["attempted"/"attempting"]"lock-in"/"stability"
knowledge/awareness of "agency, errors in" [sic]
knowledge/awareness of "doing, errors in" [sic]
knowledge/awareness of self-conceptualization
knowledge/awareness of self-conceptualization, errors in [sic]
knowledge/awareness of "seamlessly decide to do and then do something" vs "just do"
knowledge/awareness of "belief [phenomenology]" (*)
knowledge/awareness of "plan [phenomenology]" (*)
knowledge/awareness of "error"
knowledge/awareness of "two things that are combined that shouldn’t be"
knowledge/awareness of wrongness/incorrectness
knowledge/awareness of "this is my life, now" [~transient]
knowledge/awareness of an ‘instance of itself" (after Eugene Gendlin)
knowledge/awareness of "belief in punctate updates" [though not necessarily conceptualized or named exactly as such]
knowledge/awareness of [an instance of] [a/an] intellectual-grasping/update/thought
knowledge/awareness of limit(s)/edge(s) of its world
knowledge/awareness of instance-exemplification [sic] of the attention paradigm as such
knowledge/awareness of "I am that which attends [pays/places attention]"
knowledge/awareness [identity-feel(s)]; being someone
??"I" without identity ?or trajectory/future
knowledge/awareness of relief
awareness of "non-Euclidean openings"
awareness of "other realities"/"another reality"
awareness of "openings to other realities" ["zones"]
awareness of "skhandas"(sp?)
knowledge/awareness of "the whole damn thing and it’s relationship to me"
knowledge/awareness of "waiting/trusting for ‘fill-in’/‘building’"
knowledge/awareness of "fakeness" or "more fake"
knowledge/awareness of "more real"
knowledge/awareness of going-with-it-/running-with-it-ness (unassuming-self-assuming [sic])
knowledge/awareness of "this is the case-ness"
knowledge of unhandledness, seeming-liability-ness
knowledge/awareness of "real-feeling-ness" (cf. immersiveness, consequences, stakes)
knowledge/awareness of bypass
knowledge/awareness of pushing
knowledge/awareness of forcing
knowledge/awareness of structuring
knowledge/awareness of choicepoint
knowledge/awareness of what-got-you-here-won’t-get-you-there-ness
knowledge/awareness of againstness; direct opposition
knowledge/awareness of "knowledge of layering"
knowledge/awareness of subverbal/paraverbal intention
knowledge/awareness of subverbal/paraverbal structure/commitment
knowledge/awareness of overloaded substrate
knowledge/awareness of substrate contention
knowledge/awareness of substrate usage detachment/refactoring
knowledge/awareness of "somatic refactoring"
knowledge/awareness of desert, deservingness (positive/negative)
knowledge/awareness of "making-thing-exist"/"making-things-exist"
knowledge/awareness of "selfing"/"self-ing"
knowledge/awareness of "permanence-ing"
knowledge/awareness of "independent existence-ing"
knowledge/awareness of "[attempted] ’solution-ing’ for a particular thing that affirms/enhances/strengthens/facilitates the very thing that is the problem"
knowledge/awareness of transparently-take-for-granted
knowledge/awareness of opposite-masquerading-as-forward
knowledge/awareness of liminally blocked/surfacing urge and/or impulse and/or "dysregulation"
knowledge/awareness of near-or-full-overwhelming-ness-to-act-rather-than-not-act
knowledge/awareness of only-ness
knowledge/awareness of the-very-thing-that-ness
knowledge/awareness of anything-but-the-mainline(-but-still-forward)-ness
knowledge/awareness of artificiality
awareness of suffering
awareness of grasping/accumulating
awareness of anxiety
knowledge/awareness of has-to-work-ness/must-work-ness/has-to-succeed-ness/must-succeed-ness
knowledge/awareness of [body] [felt] anticipations/ing
knowledge/awareness of [bodymind] commitments
knowledge/awareness of disbelief/"disbelief"
knowledge/awareness of disbelief-as-such/"disbelief as such"
knowledge/awareness of ["particularly active"] disbelief-as-such/"disbelief as such"
knowledge/awareness of disbelief that X
knowledge/awareness of disbelief that X is real/true/obtaining
knowledge/awareness of seeming-darkness
knowledge/awareness of almost-darkness
knowledge/awareness of "blackness"
knowledge/awareness of low-magnitude-ness (sensation)
knowledge/awareness of low-intensity-ness (sensation)
knowledge/awareness of truth/"truth"
knowledge/awareness of existence/"existence"
knowledge/awareness of reason/reasoning/"reason"/"reasoning"/"Reason"
knowledge/awareness of latent, above-threshold-if-triggered, self-/other-dangerous behavioral impulses
knowledge/awareness of credulity+naivete+{having no idea what's going on}
knowledge/awareness of "reality pocket"
knowledge/awareness of heaviness (h)
knowledge/awareness of lightness (h)
knowledge/awareness of world pockets
knowledge/awareness of latent, above-threshold-if-triggered, self-/other-dangerous behavioral impulses
knowledge/awareness of indeterminacy
knowledge/awareness of rushing/haste/hurry/bypass/override/force/pressure/pushing
knowledge/awareness of nebulosity and constraint
knowledge/awareness of anxiety
knowledge/awareness of the (felt) goodness/gift of anxiety
knowledge/awareness of reaching
knowledge/awareness of clawing
knowledge/awareness of [active] directionality
knowledge of fragility
knowledge of safety
knowledge/awareness of error
knowledge/awareness of suffering as such
knowledge/awareness of reification as such
knowledge/awareness of impermanence as such
top-down person-ing [sic]
top-down meaning-making, "sensemaking," "figuring" [sic]
"indirect awareness"/[indirect] knowledge of "partiality" [sic]
awareness/~~~knowledge of non-figuring [sic]
awareness of meaning
awareness of interpretation
awareness of significance
awareness of implication
awareness of "can I just get on with X now" impulse
knowledge/awareness of [seemingly] inviolates, iron laws
knowledge/awareness of fakeness
knowledge/awareness of corruption [*]
knowledge/awareness of insanity [*]
knowledge/awareness of expectation/"expectationing" [sic]
knowledge/awareness of railroading
knowledge/awareness of [~~sending*]
knowledge/awareness of control
knowledge/awareness of self-ing
knowledge/awareness of separateness
knowledge/awareness of I, world, future
[knowledge/awareness] "don't fucking care" [sic]
narrative self as such
interiority as such
directly against/directly opposed
sensemaking
doesn’t make sense/doesn’t need to make sense (at least right now)
?"testosterone system"
?"estrogen system"
broken
"eternal" story logic / "eternal" story emotion / "eternal" story motivation
impermanence
story
[sensitization of liminality with respect to true absence/nothingness/?nibbana; cf. optionally "sweetness"]
stability, stable knowing
"expectation of stably winning"
eternal
impermanence/noneternal
effort
(effortlessness)
volition
(nonvolition)
"depth"
local microextinguishments "in wider emptiness", local micronibannas "in wider emptiness"
oblivion
"positive forgetting" [compare with “losslessness”]
internalization/coping (non-“armored”, non-essentially-layery, per se/as such
shoring / shoring up / making stable / [trying to make stable] / pressing in / [trying to make timelessly permanently permanent ongoingly stably durational] / fortication / [trying to] hold[~ing] in place
top-down-ness, overhang-ness[, "de-synch" (between something like "perception" and "action"]
tucking, folding
pushing away
holding at bay
preconceiving
I am (X), I did (X), I was (X), ...
immersive historical contextual surround
~"life philosophy"/deserving/what-doing-why-doing-it-how-it-all-works
self-love
gripping, clinging [(((cf. time))), (((cf. oblivion)))]
refuge
possessing, owning, coveting, taking into [oneself, as it were]
structuring/schematizing
abstracting
"permanence-ing"
"pre-dismay"
[[~~particularity or specificity in self-change agenda, goal, ordering, plan, intention (performatively semi-paradoxical in this rendering)]]
“leaving-/left-out”(-ness)
{“unnecessarily inherent” bypass-y/-ing}—ness
"extra"
"rushing away"-ness (cf. vs. e.g. "just this"; "this is it"); (cf. haste, etc., above)
"escaping"
[backwards-]+to-go-forwards
"*-ing away from" (cf. past actions, irredeemability, (self-)forgiveness)
(")control[ling](")
(")ignoring(")
protagonisting/protagonist-ing/personing/person-ing/imitating/identity-ing/(!)willing(!)/(!)will-ing(!)/(!)meditating(!)/me-ing
managing [cf. pushing, pushing away]
acquiring [cf. pushing, pushing away]
[[[[achieving, succeeding]]]]
""""""""fighting""""""""
""""""""""""resisting/resistance""""""""""""
- defending, protecting
  - see also: welcoming
"non-groundlessness" / "thing" / "a 'the thing'" [sic] / "a 'a thing'" [sic] / """"attachment"""" / touchstone / shrine / idol / gimmick / "fetish" / handhold / "objectified reliance" / ["object"] [See: on groundlessness, a brief note]
boring/boredom; interesting/interestingness
effort
I-desire/I-want + ~3p ❤️ [::heart emoji::; sic]
[pleasant; unpleasant; neutral/ignored]
(“forward(s) and backward(s)”)
grasping [attachment, latching, clutching , clasping, layering]
arrogance, theory, humility, surprise (, learning)
locationness, spatiality, cause and effect, dependency,
inability, reflective non-knowhow, reflective ability-stuckness (cf. “I don’t know how to not know how.”)
boring[, useless, etc.]
"dying"
[prior non-meditative (or meditative) needle-threading; "constraint channels felt as such"]
(maybe or definitely) "last time" ("will ever do or experience that") or "maybe again"
doesn't satisfy / won't satisfy / "even X"
[could go back [in theory] but] wouldn't be the same
[xx]
- “don’t/shouldn’t interfere with X” [xx]
- “looking/interfering/acting will only make it worse” [xx]
- “if X was supposed to happen/get better/[…] it already would [have] [on its own]” [xx]
- “X can only get better if I don’t look at it or interfere with it” [xx]
[[[[[[["blind alley"]
"particular" experiences of suffering "as such"
welcoming
trying*
helpless[, hopeless, no escape, just] suffering*

Notes:

There doesn't have to be any labeling when doing p3. There can just be noticing or recognizing or knowing, including shading into aconceptuality and sensation.
The gist or pith of p3 is "leave it alone as best you can," or "drop all voltionality with respect to it as best you can," and maybe it'll usefully self-stabilize a little, or self-change, or self-transform, or self-interact with the things around it. "keep it company", "hang out with", subtle self-interaction, neither too close nor too far
Sometimes p3 can have a top-down flavor, and as much, or more often, or sometimes even almost exclusively, p3 is or can have more of a "self-gathering" or self-offering” type of thing, happening almost entirely bottom-up. The flavor can be very similar to "having insights."

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