p24: (draft)

Allowing, welcoming:

• not transforming yourself
• [not seeing reality clearly]
• no becoming whatsoever
• ????????impersonal achievement
• ?????????align[...]????????
• don't know why i'm doing it except that i am doing it, except that i find myself doing it
• i'm not even sure what i want to happen
• only really action is my finding myself in action
• [don't know what doing]
• [don't know what want]
• [don't know what anything means]
• [don't know who am]
• no idea what's going on or what it means
• something keeps happening and don't know what and even "something" is too much a thing
• don't know what things are or what they mean and yet still acting
• no idea what i'm doing, no idea why i'm doing it