# <a id="p20" href="https://globway.top/s/p20">p20:</a>
Surrender (in)to unconsciousness; surrender to/​as effortless, spontaneous consciousness/​awareness. In this, you're not /*trying*/ to be UNconscious, but neither are you resisting unconsciousness, and neither are you trying to be conscious, awake, etc. This is not by fiat; this is only when safe; gently explore or fall into ways to make it safe, which might paradoxically involve finding non-effortful ways to be both more alert and more relaxed, at the same time, sometimes, and sometimes not. It's ok to fall asleep; you don't have to explore this while falling asleep; again it's ok if you do fall asleep. You might especially explore this when you're both sleepy and awake at the same time, etc., etc. Under/​within the context of this main practice, it's ok to experimentally and exploritorily indirect facilitate various things, help things out, slip towards path of least resistence, unwinding, p2-style and p16-style, etc.
Scratch experimental pith notes:
* paradoxical narrow consciousness in """reduced""" consciousness states
* As delayered, unwrapped, etc., sense re sensations just as they are.
* Something something intrinsic valence of fully delayered sensations.
* That which is intrinsically neither good nor bad.
* That which is not intrinsically meaningful.
* Sense in which completely at the mercy of uncertain this.
* Sense in which already lost, long ago. Sense in which will always have already lost.
* \[At least one ]Sense in which nothing changes, before and after; no difference.
* Will still have 99.9999% of the problems currently have, and perhaps more, etc.
See also:
* <a href="https://globway.top/s/hypoarousal-and-medical-fear">working with hypoarousal (and somewhat separately but relatedly) medical fear and uncertainty (draft)</a>
Surrender (in)to unconsciousness; surrender to/as effortless, spontaneous consciousness/awareness. In this, you're not /trying/ to be UNconscious, but neither are you resisting unconsciousness, and neither are you trying to be conscious, awake, etc. This is not by fiat; this is only when safe; gently explore or fall into ways to make it safe, which might paradoxically involve finding non-effortful ways to be both more alert and more relaxed, at the same time, sometimes, and sometimes not. It's ok to fall asleep; you don't have to explore this while falling asleep; again it's ok if you do fall asleep. You might especially explore this when you're both sleepy and awake at the same time, etc., etc. Under/within the context of this main practice, it's ok to experimentally and exploritorily indirect facilitate various things, help things out, slip towards path of least resistence, unwinding, p2-style and p16-style, etc.
Scratch experimental pith notes:
paradoxical narrow consciousness in """reduced""" consciousness states
As delayered, unwrapped, etc., sense re sensations just as they are.
Something something intrinsic valence of fully delayered sensations.
That which is intrinsically neither good nor bad.
That which is not intrinsically meaningful.
Sense in which completely at the mercy of uncertain this.
Sense in which already lost, long ago. Sense in which will always have already lost.
[At least one ]Sense in which nothing changes, before and after; no difference.
Will still have 99.9999% of the problems currently have, and perhaps more, etc.